LIfe is Breezy when you take it Easy *.*: May 2009

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

祝福与永别...

This picture is actually a night scene in penang, viewed from d top of d hill behind my house, its kinda a 'hidden spot' where i usually go when im awfully depressed, or a place for some personal chit chat with my close frens. Since im still in Melbourne right now, i guess i can only 望梅止渴吧!

As busy as i am right now, i guess im just gonna take half an hour, place all my assignments and studies aside, and concentrate on this post....... as this post is related to someone whom i respect a lot, and a close fren of my father.

This morning my brother delivered me a depressing news, that our family doctor has passed away, due to high blood pressure. I was completely shocked when i heard that, coz beginning of the year i actually went to his clinic for a medical checkup, and we re all still joking and laughing around. It really Just Happened, without any warning or wad! And for your info he was not the 老撇撇 doctor, just on his way to the 60s.

The reason why i respect him so much is because....he really did live up to the words '妙手仁心'....really was an ethical and angel-hearted doctor. I remember when i was aged 12, my grandma came to my house to stayover, and that evening she had a terrible sickness. Dr Chiou knew bout it and rushed to our place without any hesitation, he gave medication and injection to her, and after all the treatments and stuffs, he refused to received the payment, even my father had forced him to. I was literally sitting beside and watched everything happened, i guess right now since hes not here already, means 妙手仁心 no longer exists anymore! haizzz!!

See guys, things can be so vulnerable, including our lives, so if u think u had a bad day today and u wished u could reverse the time coz u quarreled or broke up with your relationship partner, or someone stole your handphone, or lost your wallet, think of the incident that i just mentioned, wads worse than losing a live, losing someone without even get to say goodbye.

With that said, i miss my family even more now, and also my relatives, and a bunch of my penangite frens, close frens, DEAREST FRENS! Missing you Guys! I guess at this stage, im not even shy to say 观音娘娘, 保佑我的家人,我心爱的亲戚, 和心爱的朋友平平安安,身体健康.

Xian's statement of the day 'The quality that surrounds you defines you', my deepest condolence and respect goes to you Dr Chiou, rest in peace @-

Sunday, May 17, 2009

L-U-C-K-Y

Today is considered one of my lucky-est days i can say, i ve been worried bout my my tough Research Method Assignment, planned to come to library today to get it over and done with coz i dun haf that particular program in my laptop. Once i got out from my apartment, a free city circle tram was already on its way to the stop, hahaha SOOO LUCKY! dun even haf to wait!!

After that, once i reach the library, its 12 noon, and at this time, normally its peaked, crowded and library is full of students walking in and out, and all the PCs are supposingly ALLLL occupied already. And ALOT of students are walking around waiting for someone to get out of the seats so they can use the computers. Then i was like HAIZZZZZ, no hope, just haf to wait...HAHAHA but as i walked front a bit, suddenly i saw a girl packing her bag and ready to leave, and nobody noticed that, i straight ran to that seat and WHOOOOP!!!! I WIN!!!! hahahah, i can see al those green with enzy gazes staring at me..... hahahah.....THEN i continued with my assignment....

Still in d library when writing this post, just finished the main part of my assignment all by myself, and of course with the help of my senior's(MERVIN) reference book, thank you so much, own u big one, kinda relieved now,and i just wanna thank you PU CHO MA for blessing me with such a day! THANK YOU! After a while, i saw one of my Ah Mo coursemates sitting opposite me, SO HAPPY coz i discuss my assignment with him, and he corrected the important errors that ive made, YEAHHHH, SOOOO LUCKY, if not i would haf continued on the wrong tract!!!! thanks Stew.............................hahahha, there are still alot of people stand by waiting for the PCs

I really cant imagine how today would be like, if i missed the tram, if i had to wait for minutes or hours for the PCs and if i didnt bump to my coursemate, and continued with all the errors. phewww!

K la, i gotta rush to lecture now d, enough crapping, haf a great day too guys.....lucks!

Xian's statement of the day 'I came, I saw, i Conquered'

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Life.....constantly in rotary motion.

Couple of minutes ago, i went to visit a fren of mine's blog.....As cited in her blog '当有了自由时，才开始怀念当时追求自由的感觉'. I couldnt agree more, i guess this is pretty much everybody's struggle. Civilizations literally spend more than 50% of their lifespan trying to achieve self -actualisation, working their asses off from the lowest arena, by first fulfilling biological needs, then safety and security, then love and bonding with each other, then self-esteem requirements etc etc....

Alas, its such a funny feeling, when something is so far away from u, u want it so badly, u haf to haf it, u will do anything to reach it........but ONCE u obtain and inherit that something, be it goals or properties or wadeva, u re not as happy as expected, or as excited or satisfied. Hence, people can just easily give up on what they initially wanted so badly and fought for ages. I personally think that its because those people tend to neglect the journey, tend to forget that they haf come a long way, to reach their destination. Sometimes its not about the goal, its bout the road and the voyage that take us there, allll the character bulding experiences embedded.

In short, it is important to haf fundamental goals in mind and in life, but we haf to be aware that life is a never-ending desire fulfilling, goal reaching, and dream accomplishing process. Wad truly matters in each route is the progression and development we see in ourselves, even if we may not acqure wad we crave for at the end. Also appreciating the whole journey, be it sweet or bitter, sometimes the experiences we gain from 'expedition' are more valueable than the goal itself.

Xian's statement of the day' We don't understand the word we perceive, but we perceive the word we understand'

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mummy Dearest!

This picture is dedicated to my mum!

Yesterday, 10th of May was Mother's Day, unfortunately i couldnt get to celebrate with my family, missed all the fancy fantabulous treats! Well although for the past 20 years i didnt really contribute much during Mother's Day, but somehow when im all alone in Australia, i started to treasure and appreaciate things in Penang, including my Family. My mum and I are not the typical loving and supportive type, however we manage to create a strong and positive bond or relationship...hahah through being sacarstic and making fun of each other, for instance...That girl would go like 'Hahaha, u re so ugly, i wonder if u re really my son', then i would throw back the sacarsm card to her by responding 'Yea, i hope im not, i wont wan an ugly woman to be my mum", but in a strange way, wadever she said to me, or even worse sometimes, it barely hurts my feeling....i guess thats the true power of love GUA! ANYWAY......since i didnt get to celebrate mothers day with my mum and my beloved AH MAs婆婆 and 外婆, im just gonna be TRULY sincere overhere and wish them a...........

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to you LadIEs!!! STAy preeTy and Stay YoUNg!!!!!

Xian's statement of the day "No granny means No mummy, No mummy means No U, No U means No Life, No life means u can kiss my ASS goodbye!"

Friday, May 8, 2009

Am I still who I am?

My fabulous personality is constructed by my spirit and youthful energy, and it helps me persevere through stressful life events....YES IT DOES! AIYIAYIAYIA!!!

Hoooaaaa!! still couple of assignments left, and 3 papers of exam, then this semester is DONE!! ALL DONE!!! U haf no idea, it was just like yesterday when i kissed my beloved penang home goodbye, and all of the wonderful outings with family,relatives and frens, all the quality time and crazy stuffs that we all did! Cant believe i get to do all that agaiN so sooon!!!I was just totally wrapped up with excitement and hapiness....... until today!!

During tutorial today, we were supposed to discuss bout cencorship, and my group's discussion was about internet blocking...u know, due to children's massive exposure to pornography, cyber bullying/abusing etc etc, and my classmate suddenly suggested "being tooo engaging and occupied with the internet can develop AntiSocial Behaviour"....and I was like thinking "erm...u talking bout me?"...Instantaneously i became silent, it really did bother me because like to be honest, my life in melbourne is almost equivalent to No Life...i admit i do 'socialize' with the internet and my laptop more than real human bodies out there. One of the key reasons is because IM SOO BUSY, especially this semester, assignments and presentations piled up like nobody's business, and i really am not the type of laid back individual, i haf to make sure the works that i submit are wayyyy beyond satisfactory, OR WOWs the tutors!!

I really dun understand, how the Ah Mo(s) can take things so easily, do they really feel that Life is allll about "One Night In Beijing", eat and drink all u wan, haf fun like there's no tomorrow. I mean i do act that way, but thats after the exam, after ive dealt with all the hustles and tustles, NOT EVERYDAY FRIDAY NIGHT! I really cant let myself drilled into their black holes of irresponsibility, hmmmm, i wonder if that is that a symptom of antisocial behaviour?? or worse 宅男, i find it so hard to reach a balance, an equilibrium, even if my frens ask me out for dinner every week, or social activities, i tend to just use "sorry....need to rush reports" as excuses....i Dunno lo, that is just SOO not me,remember when i was in college, i used to deal with things in such a proper and reasonable way, handling both academic and social life so well!!

OKOK, enough babbling and prattling, just cross fingers that my current uni life wont cause my colourful and extraordinary personality to fade away... I mean wads the big deal, u cant expect learning to always be a delighful experience, im just gonna promise myself to haf DOUBLE the fun and excitement during holiday la right?!?!? I guess its time to grow up, and take some responsibilites, rather than worrying bout having fun 24/7.

PS: HAHAHA, i know u guys would probably be reading this post and go like "wad the hell", "wads the point"......sorry if u feel that way, but it means something to me alright.. anyway haf a great day..toodles!

Xian's statement of the day.." If someone feels that they have never made a mistake in their life, it means they have never tried a new thing in their life"